crush

The sounds of the teacher’s lessons turned to an inaudible murmur as Jimmy stared at the back of Hannah’s peroxide blonde haired head. She was wearing a cute ponytail. He stared closely at the texture of her skin, wishing that he could lick it, wishing that he could lose his virginity to her. He fantasized about her like this every day in this class. He was failing, but he didn’t care. He felt like he was in love with her, but he’d never even really talked to her. The bell rang loudly ending class. Hannah got up to leave, but Jimmy kept sitting there for a moment. She glanced towards him and noticed him staring at her. She quickly looked away from his zitty face. She didn’t want to have anything to do with him. He wasn’t very attractive. Besides the acne, he was scrawny and awkward. Hannah however was very cute and sexy. He didn’t realize though, that she felt this way. He thought she was “the one”.

Jimmy walked back to his locker, irritated with the masses of people walking through the halls. As he walked, he was thinking about Hannah. He knew he had to act if he wanted a chance with her. She was single at the time, but he knew that could change. As he looked through his papers, he realized he had to take action. He made up his mind to ask her out. He was nervous as hell about it, but it had to be done. For the rest of the day he thought about how he would go about approaching her. He played out different possible scenarios in his mind, some ending with good results, others ending in humiliation. He was a self conscious young man, and he wasn’t very good in social situations. That night he tossed and turned in anxiety about what he would say.

That morning, the anxiety started making him a little sick to his stomach. He was worrying about it too much. He couldn’t pay attention during class. After his first class was over, he saw her in the hall. She was wearing short shorts and a cute tank top. His heart started racing, and palms began sweating as he approached her. ‘This is it’ he thought. The anxiety was so intense; it was almost a panic attack. She was talking to a friend when he walked up to her. “Hey Hannah.” He quietly said attempting to initiate a conversation. Hannah didn’t look his way. She didn’t really hear him very well, and wasn’t sure if he was talking to her. His nervousness grew as he waited for her to respond. He looked down at his feet. She looked over at him after a few seconds to see if he was in fact talking to her. She assumed he wasn’t because he wasn’t even looking at her, so she walked away without saying anything. Jimmy turned and walked away quickly, clearly upset to anyone who looked at him. He assumed she ignored him at first, and that made him very angry, but as time went by he started to realize that she may not have heard him. He was up all night worrying yet again. He couldn’t determine whether or not she had ignored him. He ultimately decided that she must not have heard him, but either way, he felt very awkward about it.

After a week or so Jimmy realized he had to try again. What if she hadn’t heard him? It would be as if he never even attempted to ask her out, and he really wanted her. He saw her in the hall, and his heart raced, same as before. He walked towards her, practically trembling. Oblivious to everything but her. He approached her, this time he knew he had to speak up. “Hey Hannah” He awkwardly greeted.

“Hey, what’s up?” She responded in a somewhat condescending way.

“Well, ahh, I was ahm, wondering if you might want to ahh go out with me sometime?” He asked. He didn’t know how to build rapport or ask a girl out. He just did the best he could. Hannah laughed at his awkward proposition.

“What’s your name again?” She asked. He was surprised and hurt that she didn’t even remember his name from class. He didn’t realize that she never paid any attention to him.

“Jimmy” He said, his voice trembling slightly.

“Well, Jimmy, that’s sweet of you, but you’re really not my type….sorry.” She smiled as she broke the bad news.

“It’s ok. Ahh, ok, bye.” He nervously responded.

“Bye” Hannah giggled a little at the awkward close. She turned and strutted away with her friends. Jimmy watched as they walked away. He loved Hannah’s round muscular ass in the jeans she was wearing that day, but more than anything, he was emotionally ravaged from this. He noticed the girls were laughing. One of them looked back at him for a second. He looked away in embarrassment that he was caught watching them. He was sure they were laughing about him. That day Jimmy realized that Hannah was beyond his reach. He was still very sexually attracted to her, but his infatuation with her was now over. He felt upset and angry. He spent all this time feeling love for her, and she had never even really noticed that he existed. He felt like a fool.

Several weeks passed. The school organized a party for all the seniors at a local recreation center. Jimmy decided to go even though his few friends weren’t going. He thought it might be fun and might possibly be a chance to meet some girls. The recreation center was outdoors, and the weather was hot. There was free food and cheap carnival style games. Jimmy was fairly bored after chowing down on the food. He decided to try the batting cages. He had never really tried one before but he played a little baseball when he was a kid. The cages ranged from 40 mph to 90. Jimmy chose 70 mph, but was concerned it might be too fast. Four quarters bought 10 pitches. He stepped up to the plate and prepared himself to bat. The first few balls he missed, then he hit one. Hannah and her friends happened to be walking by at the time when he was batting. They were bored, so they thought they’d watch him. Jimmy hit another ball. The girls cheered. Jimmy was keeping track of the balls, so he’d know when he was done, but the girl’s cheers threw him off and he forgot where he was in the counting. He became nervous knowing they were behind him, and missed the rest of the balls. He counted ten. The way he was batting he had to walk over the plate in order to leave. After that final ball he wanted to get out of there quickly because of his social anxiety with the girls there. Unfortunately for him, his count was off, and that tenth ball was actually the ninth. The final ball shot out as he was walking over the plate. At 70 mph there was no time to react. The ball blasted right into Jimmy’s nuts. At the moment of impact, his eyes shot open wide, he breathed in sharply, and leaned forward slightly. The moment of impact was like a train wreck inside his scrotum. The ball impacted both testicles, but the bulk of the impact was absorbed by the left. His left testicle ruptured upon impact, and the right was badly bruised. He didn’t know this of course, but he knew it was bad. The pain was immediate and Jimmy quickly collapsed to the ground. He had his hands protecting his manhood as he lay in the fetal position. The girls’ eyes shot wide upon witnessing the incident as well. “Oh…my…god.” Britney remarked, followed by the girls all breaking into uproarious laughter. The pain in his testicles was all encompassing. It emanated down his legs, and up into his lower back and stomach. It was making him nauseas. His head was pounding and with each heartbeat his vision went a little black. His mind could not think about anything but the pain. Tears began to well in his eyes; he was dripping sweat and gasping for air. The sound of the girls laughing behind him made it even worse. The girls interjected their laughter with various comments.

“Oh my god, that’s gotta sting.” Hannah laughed.

“Yeah, I hope you weren’t planning on having kids.” Sarah joked. They all thought that one was really hilarious.

“I wish we had that on tape. It’d be perfect for America’s funniest home videos.” Hannah said.

“Yeah, totally.” Britney agreed. They just kept watching him and laughing for several more minutes. They didn’t seem concerned that he seemed to be in complete agony. The pain had not subsided in the least for Jimmy. The heat was making it worse. Hannah signaled her friends to be quiet, and then to follow her. She led them a few yards away from the cage.

“You guys, we have to get that on tape, ya know?” Hannah asked.

“What do you mean?” Sarah asked.

“I have an idea.”

“What?” Sarah asked.

“We’ll walk back over to him, then I’ll go in and act all concerned about him. As I’m doing this, you quietly put some quarters in, and you start the camera running. I’ll help him up to his feet and get him in the same position right in front of the machine, then you press the start button.”

“Yeah, but it won’t be the same if you’re holding him up, it won’t look like an accident.” Britney retorted.

“Well we can edit that out later. Besides, even if it doesn’t get on America’s funniest home videos it will still be awesome to have it on tape.”

“True.” Britney agreed.

“Ok, let’s go before he gets up on his own.” Hannah ordered. They quietly walked back over.

“Hey, are you ok in there?” Hannah asked.

“No” Jimmy grunted under his breath. Hannah walked in to help him. She squatted down next to his face. Jimmy could see her panties up under her shorts, but it meant little to him at the moment.

“You need to get out of the heat.” Hannah told him. As she was talking Sarah very quietly slipped the quarters in. The machine was ready, just waiting for her to press start. “Here, let me help you up.”

“No, I can’t” He grunted.

“It’ll be ok, I promise…I’m just gonna walk you over to a tree so you can cool down in the shade. Trust me, it’ll be much better.”

Jimmy didn’t feel like getting out of that position, but the heat was getting to him. He decided that she was right, and allowed her to help him up. She got behind him and pulled him up with her hands under his shoulders. His knees shook as she held him there. He couldn’t stand up without her help at this point. The pain was debilitating him. Hannah pretended like she was struggling to get a good grip, but in reality was moving him into position over the mound. She held him in place, making sure she was in a position where she wouldn’t get hit by the ball if it missed him. She looked at Sarah with wide impatient eyes cueing her to press the button. Sarah pressed it quickly. The first ball shot out. Jimmy saw it coming, but it was impossible to react in time. It slammed into his nuts, hitting both with almost equally devastating power. His left testicle, which was already ruptured, was then pulverized to a chunky mess. The right which was swelling couldn’t take the pressure and ruptured as the left one had before. His mind lit on fire with burning agony. He couldn’t do anything but drop to the ground. He had no strength to hold himself up. Hannah was still holding him up though. He was heavy at that point, but she held him up just long enough for the second ball to rocket out. This second ball bashed into his crotch. His penis blocked the brunt of the blow this time. When it hit, his penis split like a burst sausage. Although his dick absorbed a lot of the impact, the burning in his balls was intensified with this ball. He began violently vomiting at this point. “Ewww” Hannah exclaimed as she dropped him to the ground and got out of the cage. “Did you get it on tape?” Hannah asked, laughing with the other girls.

“Yeah, I did.”

“Awesome.” The girls kept laughing at him.

“This’ll be perfect for America’s funniest home videos.” Brittney laughed. Jimmy couldn’t even register anything they were saying. He was barely conscious. The girls laughed for another ten minutes or so, then got bored, and left him there on the ground.
Jimmy passed out for about 15 minutes or so. When he awoke he was still in unbearable agony, and he dry heaved. An employee happened to see him there shortly after this.

“Oh my God, are you ok?” She asked, clearly stifling laughter.

“No, call 911” He muttered. The employee thought he was overreacting but she wouldn’t deny anybody an ambulance. She called 911 immediately. The ambulance came and two female paramedics took him away. Jimmy was glad to be in the ambulance, but very worried about his testicles. He told the paramedic what happened when they asked. They were both obviously stifling laughter to the best of their abilities. “Do you think I’ll lose my testicles?” He fearfully asked.

“Well, I can’t say for sure, but, to be honest….probably.” She smiled as she told him. “It’ll be ok though, at least you’ll live right?” Jimmy was disturbed now, but he knew that this would probably be the case. Jimmy was still in utter agony. They hadn’t given him any pain medication. The bumps in the ride were hard on him. They finally arrived in the hospital and took him to a room. He waited in that room for an hour, still with no painkiller. After an hour, the doctor came in. She was a chubby but attractive middle aged woman.

“Sorry for the wait, we had some higher priority cases that came up. Some real emergencies, ya know?”

“Uh huh.” Jimmy mindlessly responded.

“Soooo, I understand you had an accident. What happened?” She asked. He proceeded to tell her the story. “Ouch, I bet that hurt.” She laughed a bit.

“Yeah, it still hurts really bad.” He responded.

“How bad does it hurt on a scale of 1-10, with 10 being the worst unbearable pain ever, and 1 being no pain?”

“Ten!” He responded immediately. Her brow rose with suspicion.

“I know it’s your testicles, and they’re probably really important to you, but I need you to be honest with me.”

“I am, the pain is unbearable, it’s the worst pain ever.”

“Hmmm, well, I guess we can give you some Tylenol.”

“Don’t you have anything stronger?”

“No, sorry.” Jimmy was pissed, but took the Tylenol which did nothing for the pain. They ran x rays on his testicles finding the left testicle completely destroyed and the right ruptured. The doctor returned to inform Jimmy of the results. “Well, the results are better than I expected but not great. Your left testicle is basically mush at this point, so we’re obviously gonna have to cut that one out. The right one is ruptured, and may have to be removed as well, but, if you’re lucky… and that’s a big if.” She laughed. “Then we might be able to save it, and you may even be able to have children.” She smiled. “All I can say is, don’t get your hopes up. Ok?” She seemed to care very little about his situation. They gave him the anesthetic to knock him out and a paralytic so he wouldn’t be able to move. The procedure involved removing the mush, and stitching up his penis and right testicle. During the procedure the doctor made a joke. “Wow, looks more like peanut butter than a peanut.” The female assistant laughed with her. They finished up the surgery. As Jimmy was waking up the assistant greeted him.

“Good morning.” She chimed. He was so dazed that he couldn’t even think to respond. “How are you feeling?” She asked. Still no response. He could understand what she was saying, but couldn’t formulate a response. “In case you forgot…you had an accident; we had to cut out one of your testicles, because it was destroyed.” She smiled as she informed him, and then strutted away. He watched her plump thighs gyrating back and forth as she left. Around thirty minutes passed and the doctor returned. Jimmy was fully awake now, and his scrotum and penis ached.

“How are you doing?” She asked.

“Well, I’m in some pain right now.”

“Oh, that’s normal; we just cut out one of your nuts after all.” She laughed. Jimmy didn’t think it was funny. The doctor seemed offended that he didn’t laugh so she got more serious. “You still have your right testicle, but it was badly ruptured. I was able to repair it surgically, but it will be in a fragile state for the next month or so. You have to be very careful with it; you may want to wear a cup, because even the slightest blow and, well, to put it bluntly, your sex life will be over.” She smiled with a bit of satisfaction after saying that. Jimmy was very worried.

“Can I get any painkillers?” He asked.

“You really like those painkillers don’tcha?Over the counter Tylenol should be fine.” She informed him. “I’ll need to check in with you in two weeks to decide whether or not we need to cut out righty. K?”

“Ok.” Jimmy quietly and angrily responded. He felt like the doctor was being a bitch, but he was glad it was all over.

“Ok, see ya then.” She responded. He watched her ass as she walked away. At least he could take revenge on her in his mind in this way.

Jimmy bought a cup at the local shopping center. He was scared as hell about losing his right testicle. He wore the cup on a daily basis after that. The pain from the surgery went on for the next week, and all he had was Tylenol, but he bore the pain given the doctor’s refusal to prescribe painkillers. After a couple of weeks he checked in with the doctor and everything seemed fine. “Looks like you got lucky Jimmy; you still have one more chance as a man.” The doctor laughed. Jimmy just looked down. Jimmy stopped wearing the cup a few days after that.

A week or so later, Jimmy was approached by Hannah at school. “Hey Jimmy, what’s up?”

“Nothin’” Jimmy replied. He was angry at her, but still thought she was hot.

“So, I was wondering if you might want to go on a date with me sometime? I actually think your kinda cute now.” A few of Hannah’s friends were behind her, making Jimmy apprehensive, but at the same time, he doesn’t want to miss the opportunity.

“Ok, that’d be cool. Where do you wanna go?” He apprehensively asked.

“Oh, I don’t know, I was thinking…the batting cages might be fun.” Hannah and all her friends laughed. Jimmy got red with embarrassment and anger. She took Jimmy’s hands. “I’m sorry Jimmy, that was mean. I shouldn’t have joked like that.” As she was saying that one of her friends snuck up behind Jimmy, grabbed his pants and boxers and yanked them down to his ankles, exposing his half full sack. The girls noticed the fact that he only had one nut. Hannah’s other friend had a baseball ready and tossed it right at Jimmy’s crotch. She got him dead on in the nut. It all happened so quickly, Jimmy didn’t have time to stop any of it. He was shocked and humiliated. The pain came on immediately. It seemed like it was nearly as bad as the batting cage, but he knew that in reality the batting cage was worse. The pain was still all encompassing. So much so that he collapsed into the fetal position without enough time to even pull up his boxers.

“Oh my God, did you see that? He only has one nut.” Britney remarked.

“Yeah, big surprise.” Hannah laughed.

“I bet he develops a fear of baseballs, huh?” Sarah joked.

“Yeah prolly” Hannah laughed. “Aren’t you gonna pull up your pants loser?”

Jimmy reached down to pull up his pants so Hannah took the opportunity, and slammed her boot right into his ball. They all broke into uproarious laughter as he went to protect himself again, unable to pull up his pants. Jimmy was sure that his last testicle was destroyed now. A sense of dread accompanied his burning agony. The girls left shortly thereafter for fear of getting in trouble. “Bye loser.” Hannah laughed. After they left he quickly pulled his pants up but stayed on the floor in pain for a while longer. He was very worried, but that worry abated as the pain gradually died altogether.

The next day as Jimmy was walking through the halls he was greeted by Britney. “Hey one nut.” She laughed as she walked by him. Some other girls laughed with her. Jimmy walked away quickly in embarrassment, it was clear the word would soon spread about his nut. As time went by he became known as ‘one nut’ throughout the school.

Several weeks later, Jimmy was pulling some books from his locker. He didn’t notice Hannah standing behind him. He turned, and Hannah quickly jammed her boot up into his crotch. He dropped his books and collapsed to the ground. His nut was jammed up into his abdomen, and it hurt like a motherfucker. He was getting fed up, and worried at the same time that this cunt would ruin him as a man. Hannah leaned down. “You better be careful Jimmy, or soon you’ll be the nutless wonder.” She laughed sadistically, spit in his face and flaunted her ass as she walked away.

After that Jimmy was very careful never to let his guard up. He realized now that Hannah was a fucking bitch, and that she didn’t care about him at all. He couldn’t believe he had been in love with her before. He was scared to death of losing his last nut.

Several months later passed with no incident. Jimmy was apprehensive about playing baseball for PE, but it was a requirement of the class to participate. He had actually developed a bit of a phobia of baseballs. Jimmy was waiting in line to bat, when the teacher left to take a piss. Hannah was bored and had been waiting for an opportunity to bust Jimmy’s nut. She noticed that his legs were spread apart, and he was watching the game intently. She grabbed a bat and quietly snuck up behind him. She carefully positioned the bat between his legs close to the ground. She then drove the bat up with all the strength she could muster right up into Jimmy’s last nut. The pain came on quickly with intense potency. This really felt the same as the batting cage. He was certain this was it for his testicle. He collapsed to the ground and vomited. He was moaning and gasping for air. All the girls in the class were laughing at him. The guys were sympathetic, but didn’t want to nark on Hannah. The teacher came back. She chuckled a little. “Oh my. Looks like someone’s had a little accident.” She laughed. “You need some ice?” She asked. Jimmy didn’t respond. He could barely breathe. “Maybe I better call the nurse. Do you want me to call the nurse?” She asked. Jimmy didn’t respond.

“I’m sure he’ll be fine.” Hannah said.

“You’re probably right.” The teacher said. The game went on for a while. After class was over, and he was still on the ground, the teacher finally called the nurse. The nurse took him in and examined him. She instructed him to take off his pants and underwear and then began squeezing his scrotum, which caused immense pain.

“Hmmm…I’m confused, where’s the nut?.....There’s just a sack of mush down here.” She laughed. “I’m sorry, I shouldn’t joke. We’ll need to get you to a hospital right away though.” She smiled and walked away to call an ambulance. Jimmy knew it was over then. A sense of hopelessness overwhelmed him. The ambulance took him to the hospital and he was seen by the same doctor.

“I warned you to be more careful.” She scolded as she examined his testicle. “Oh well, too late for I told you so’s now, I guess.” She laughed a bit. “I’m sure you’ll adjust to life as a eunuch quickly. Don’t worry.” She smiled. The doctor prepared him for yet another surgery. The nurse gave him the paralytic drug rendering him motionless, but somehow forgot to give him the anesthetic, leaving him conscious and fully sensitive to pain. He realized this after a short time. The doctor arrived in the operating room. He felt the sharp slice of the scalpel cut into the right side of his scrotum, and his mind raced. He wanted to tell them, but he couldn’t speak or move at all. As the doctor cut him open she whistled a cheerful tune. “Wow, it’s a mess down here.” She laughed, as little chunks of his testicle spilled out. “Hope he wasn’t planning on having kids.” She chuckled.

“Or sex.” The nurse added. They both cracked up laughing. Jimmy thought he would die as she scraped the mess out from inside his scrotum. There was about a half a testicle left intact.

“If I stitch this up, it might still function, but it would take a while longer, and it might not even work. What do you think?” The doctor asked.

“I think it’s time for my lunch.” The nurse laughed.

“Yeah, it’s not really worth the trouble.” The doctor laughed as she snipped out the last of Jimmy’s manhood. Jimmy was conscious throughout, but his mind was reeling so much from the pain that he didn’t hear any of the doctor’s words.

After a while the paralytic wore off. Jimmy complained to the doctor that he could feel everything during the surgery. “No, that’s not possible, we gave you ana…” She noticed the anesthetic bottle full on the counter, and started laughing. She called the nurse in from the lunch room. “Do you realize you forgot to give him the anesthetic?” The doctor asked.

“Oh my God….Wow….That musta hurt.” They both laughed. “Sorry Jimmy, it was an accident I swear.” They laughed more.

“It’s ok; everyone makes mistakes, just don’t let it happen again. You can go back to your lunch.” Jimmy was pissed, but didn’t know what to do about it. “Well Jimmy, just so you understand, without testicles you will not be able to have children…or sex....you won’t even be able to get an erection.” She smiled as she told him. “But that’s ok because you won’t really have sexual desire once the testosterone is out of your system, which brings me to my next point. Without testosterone, you will be much less aggressive, you may develop breasts, and your voice will gradually change. The bottom line is…you are now basically a woman…with a penis.” She chuckled. “If you need to see a counselor, I can refer you to one that specializes in sex changes.” She chuckled some more. “Some people pay huge sums of money for this same surgery, so, in a way, you’re lucky. Your insurance covered it.” She laughed more. “Just kidding, you’re probably not very happy about this, but don’t worry, you’ll be fine. You’re not at risk of any further health problems from this. Just be grateful you still have a penis. It will give you the feeling of still being a man.”

The girls at school didn’t know that he lost his last nut for a few weeks, but then his voice started changing. Everyone noticed when they heard him speak. It was painfully obvious. Hannah came up to him in the hall one day. “Why is your voice so high?” She asked. He didn’t respond. “You lost your last nut, huh?” She asked. He didn’t respond. “Was it cause of me hitting it with the bat?” She asked.

“Yes.” He angrily responded.

“That sucks…I’m really sorry. I would make it up to you by going out with you…but…I think that would make me a lesbian.” She cracked up laughing as Jimmy looked down in shame and frustration. “You can’t say I didn’t warn you, you should’ve been more careful.” She laughed. She strutted away leaving Jimmy in his misery with no nuts.